``you're building me up just to break me down

[ellie mcfarlin]

``ELLIE MCFARLIN

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AND THAT'S JUST THE PRICE I PAY
when i don't even know her name
SHE'S SLIPPING AWAY

it had been about three months since ellie last drank an alcoholic drink, gotten drunk, and had sex with her now current boyfriend, caleb ross, and three months since she found out that she was pregnant. her life had been put on hold thanks to the small bumb developing on her once flat stomach. and like most girls would, ellie had spent hours bawling her eyes out not only over her situation, but maybe perhaps she wouldn't be able to fit back into her designer dresses--call her shallow, but her looks and her voice were the only things she had, and she'd been so depressed lately, singing was a fail, so her looks were the only thing she had.

in fact, it had been her looks that had actually caused the whole pregnancy thing. if ellie was some hideous monster, she'd be at home, and with a perhaps flat stomach. as these thoughts flowed through her head, she kept her eyes on the path ahead of her, heading to orientation for what would hopefully be her new school. she'd tested to get out of high school early and passed--barely--and so she decided to check out the community college in which caleb attended. and besides, she wasn't about to move to some stranger town just to attend college. ellie hadn't really planned on making a big career on anything she could learn from college--she was born to due music--and so she figured she'd be taking a few business classes along with music composition. easy peasy.

when one discusses college classes, one should never use the word easy peasy. ellie learned that the hard way when she showed up on campus--late, of course--completely lost. not to mention she stuck out like a sore thumb with that relatively noticeable bump for a stomach. which she desperately tried to hide under one of caleb's purple v neck shirts that could've doubled as a dress. along with his shirt, she was wearing a pair of ripped black leggings and a rocker hat and her favorite shades and a pair of ultra cute black gladiators--hey; when you're carrying a baby, your fashion sense doesn't have to pay for it. on her shoulder was a tan messenger bag, which always seemed like it was too heavy even if there was barely anything in it.

as the small brunette made her way through the campus--recieving many, many stares--she found herself slightly panicked. 'it's like highschool all over again.' she whimpered, nearly missing the curb that was in front of her. okay, so she wasn't really aware of where she was walking, and so before she knew it, she collided into a tall, muscular male, making her look up suddenly, clutching onto her glasses to keep them on her head from the impact. "Ohgoodness, I- I'm so s-sorry." she stuttered, taking in his size. it was weird how someone as large as himself could even be ran into, but then again, ellie seemed to be in a little of a panic on this alien like planet that was forks community college. hell, she couldn't even find her way out of the plaza. a few seconds passed by, and the stranger looked her up and down, shaking his head. "Just. Watch it next time." he growled menacingly before slinging his backpack over his shoulder and shooting her a glare before heading off to what had to be his next class. 'not a problem' ellie sighed as she regained her composure, making sure all parts of her were alright before looking down at the schedule she was clutching in her tiny hands.

with a rather defeated sigh, she sat down on a picnic table bench; deciding to give it a try tomorrow and then adjusting her hat before she automatically reached down to her belly, as if holding her baby would make her feel better. 's'okay baby. we'll get through this. momma will take care of you. i love you.' she thought, smiling softly down at her little bump, the attachement obvious in the way she acted. without even thinking, she began to sing a lullaby softly, missing the sound of her voice as she drew designs on her stomach, tears rolling down her cheecks, just wishing that she could do what she needed to do rather then give up like she always did. "I'm pitiful." she sighed, looking around her, feeling the depression washing over her again as she continued to wallow in self pity.

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status|| [/font]completed.[/size][/font]
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[Millvina Aspen Dean]

people change and promises are broken
clouds can move and skies will be wide open

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As she made her way around her newest school, forks community college, millvina found herself extremely lost and in need of evan for some mental support. This whole place was way too complicated for a school, and the flirtacious looks she kept getting from guys made her nauseous. So, trying to ignore them, she trudged on, searching for her class, russian history. Yes, it sounds like a random subject to have, but since she never had to sleep, she figured she might as well take a class that sounded interesting.

After much walking around she found herself growing tired of the stupid, redundance of school. So with a few swift strides, she made her way over to a nearby bench, already holding a human girl. But something caught her offguard, the sound of another feeble little heartbeat inside of her. With a sigh, she took a seat as far away on the bench as possible--which wasn't that big of a gap, considering it was only a picnic table.

Feeling a little out of place in the whole student environment, she looked down at her (what she considered to be) disgusting outfit that consisted of a white tank top, a cream and pink colored scarf, slightly distressed jeans, and brown boots. Of course Evan had told her that morning that she looked beautiful, but she still didn't care.

Upon hearing the girl's quiet singing voice, her head perked up to see a few tears rolling down her face, which was looking down at her stomach, which had a somewhat obvious baby bump. Upon seeing the girl's stomach, she felt a pang of sympathy for the girl, knowing just how difficult it was as a young pregnant girl. After much debating with herself, she finally decided to scooch down closer to the girl.

"erm, you alright?" she asked, trying to be as unawkward as possible. It seemed that immortality had not been able to kill her awkwardness. 'guess i'm stuck with it forever'.

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TAGGED ! [/color]ellie, college
STATUS ! done!
NOTES ! none
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[ellie mcfarlin]

``ELLIE MCFARLIN

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AND THAT'S JUST THE PRICE I PAY
when i don't even know her name
SHE'S SLIPPING AWAY

so much had happened in the small span of three months. ellie mcfarlin had gone from top of the food chain at forks high school to 'that pregnant girl' at forks community college. no more could she go out and party, living a normal teenage life. no, one night had changed her whole life, and to make matters worse; ellie couldn't even remember it. probably the only sexual experiance she'd have with caleb for a very long time--or never, even--was done and over with, and she couldn't even remember who was on top and who was on bottom. ellie shook her head, trying not to think about how wonderful or awful the sex might've been.

'i don't even know why he loves me' she thought, toying with the shirt she was wearing, slightly missing caleb's secure arms around her. he was such an amazing guy, and for some god awful reason he loved her. and to be honest, she loved that he loved her, but it just baffled her beyond anything else she'd come against in her short but seriously long eighteen years of life. growing up, she'd always been the good little girl who was destined to become a star. but after her parent's divorce when she was about seventeen, she seemed to just rebel and do everything her parents told her not to do. one of those things was going out to parties, and drinking...maybe even smoking. hell, she couldn't remember. and to be honest, the blackouts she'd come across in her mind scared her because she didn't know what had happened or even what might have happened.

before she could launch herself into even more of a panic about her troubled teenage years, a sharp scent hit her, automatically making her realize that there might be more then one vampire in forks. the voice was soft, and somewhat concerned, which in turn, made ellie feel a little more relaxed as she turned to face the friendly immortal who's voice had been so welcoming. the beauty practically radiated off the girl, instantly making ellie jealous. but the thing ellie couldn't help but notice were her slightly crimson eyes that seemed to display slight sympathy but curiousity at the same time. quickly, she wiped the tears that were on her cheeks, not really wanting to remove her glasses to reveal what had to be puffy eyes---the downfall of crying--so she just smiled a little before clearing her throat, answering the friendly vamp stranger. "oh, uh, yeah. just a little, emotional." she sighed, trying to hide her small bump. hell, why should she even bother to hide it when she probably knew anyways.

with a loud sigh, she willingly showed her stomach, shaking her head as she bit her trembling lip, choking back sobs. truth was, she wasn't okay, and she didn't know if she would be. pregnant at eighteen? her parents had no idea, and her boyfriend had just literally found out a few weeks ago. but, emotions overwhelmed the soon-to-be young mother, and she began to sob, taking off her glasses so she could bury her face in her hands. after all, the gorgeous vamp stranger probably didn't want to see her snotting over herself. there had been so much stress on ellie the past months, she wasn't really sure where she was at mentally, emotionally, and probably even physically. the only thing that had kept her sane was caleb, but now that school had started up again, she hadn't seen him as often as she'd liked to. and at this point, she needed him.

never before had ellie ever been so dependent on someone as she was on caleb, and it was literally mortifying. she hated how she constantly called him, and how she seemed clingy whenever she was around. the girl was a hot mess to say the least. sometimes she felt like she shouldn't even bother to get out of bed--especially the days when caleb was busy--and more then once, she'd fought off many sadistic thoughts, not wanting to even think about suicide. but when one was in the type of mind as ellie found herself dangerously roaming into from time to time, it was hard to picture yourself living. it seemed that, without ellie, caleb would be able to live his life--like he wanted to--and fufill his dreams, not having to worry about his too-clingy girlfriend that was knocked up with his child that he sure as hell had not planned on having. times like these, ellie needed help; and plenty of it. and little did she know, this help had been sent to her from maybe heaven; in the form of millvina aspen dean, one whom had gone through the same situation as ellie found herself in currently.

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[/color][/i] [/font]caleb's shirt FTW. bwhaha.[/size][/font]
words|| [/font]seven-nine-two[/size][/font]
tags|| [/font]millvina. college.[/size][/font]
status|| [/font]completed.[/size][/font]
outfit|| [/font]rockerchic[/size][/font]
lyrics|| [/font]lost in stereo by all time low.[/size][/font][/left]
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